Hmmm

I am super hungry. I should go to bed and skip that late late night snack.

Spooky Boo got a new outfit. This is her Easter dress, cute huh!!! Yeah I know, money is tight, but I had to have it. How could you turn something this cute down?!?! PS, it is a little too big, but I think she is still growing. And yes, she hates it.

One more thing...

I am watching Ghost Hunters, and it is freaking RAD!!! Wednesday is my favorite day because of them!!!

I felt good today.

It has been a long time since I have felt good, but today I did. It was a nice change to have a day where I could get up and do something. Bella has been "just weird" too. She has also had zero energy, and very cuddly. I am starting to think there is something in the house making us feel this way. The in-laws say that it may be the heater filter. It has been a while since we have cleaned it out, so I will nag the husband until he gets it done this coming weekend.

I almost wonder, too, if it is all in my head. I look around and all I see is dirt. The house is trashed in my eyes. I think, I should clean "fill in the blank", but in order to clean that I have to do this, and that ect. I am over whelmed. Where to even start. I thought getting Spencer's new room would be a good spot, but that is the freaking project that will never end. I just look forward to the day that we get all the bed rooms done.

On a happier note, I had a second ultra sound (Doctors orders, not my idea), and it is for sure a boy. I have come up with some clothes. I guess my mom has come up with some trash bags full of clothes from co-workers. That is super rad. I can not wait to get my hands on them and see how cute they are. I have some really really cute ideas for Jack's room, and can not wait to get started on it. All in due time though. I am not going to go crazy with his room, but I will be doing really cute things. The one special thing I have thought of doing (should not be to crazy for me to do too) is to paint a lighthouse on the wall. Nothing to ornate, just a basic shape. I also thought of a really cute idea, putting mason jars full of sand and shells on the shelf in there. Too cute. I want to the room to feel like you are going to a Washington beach. Not sure what I am going to do with the bedding yet, think I may talk my mother-in-law into quilting something up for me. Again, all in due time.

Weird times

So, it all started with shingles. It took over a week to get the pain under control, but it looks like the shingles are a thing of the past. Thank God. Just when I thought life would get back to normal, I started puking. Oh yeah, at work (Sunday) the day I finally went back. That sucked, but by Wednesday I was fine (aka my Monday). Then the next Sunday came, and I puked again. This time I did it at home. I decided I was going to be ok, so I went to work, but ended up pulling over about 1/2 mile from work and tossing my cookies again. John had to come get me. What is up with all the chucking?!?! By Sunday night, I felt better, but had come down with a fever. I was sore from the chucking on Monday, and it only made it worse that I started coughing. By Tuesday night I was sick with a really bad cold, that has now turned into a freaking sinus infection!!! The good news is the fever has gone for now. It is really hard to find the energy to be a working, pregnant, mother of 2 when you have a fever. I have gotten nothing done in the last 2 weeks, and that sucks. I just have no energy, and it seems to not be getting any better. I would take the stupid prenatal vitamins, but they make me sick. I am thinking of going and getting some children's vitamins, maybe they will stay down.

Anyway, it should go without saying, I have not gotten Spencer's new room done yet. All I have to do is paint the base board, and hang the trim (that I have not purchased yet!!) and I am done. Seems that it is easy to do, but again, I have been so under the freaking weather. The way I see it, I can not possibly get any other random illness. Right?

Is a change in the air?

So I have been putting some real thought into what I should be. I love working at The Home Depot, but I am 31, and it is time for me to be what I want to be. I can not go through life just being. I need more than that. I need to be something that makes people proud. After much thought, I think I have come up with what will make me happy, or at least I hope it will make me happy. I just worry about my age, weight and time left. I am 5 months pregnant, and fat. I need to be in shape to be what I want to be, and for me to do that, I need a year. That is 5 months to be pregnant, and 6 months to work on getting healthy.

Here's the thing, I work just under 30 hours a week, more like 25. I only bring home $700 a month. That is just not enough. I don't ask for millions of dollars, I just want to be a mother of 3, in a nice home, with decent cars, and decent clothes. Even if those decent clothing come from Walmart, I am ok with that. I want vacations with my kids, and to not have to hear Spencer say "I know we don't have any money...". Gosh, I never knew how often I said that, until he started repeating me. That is sad. I want to retire some day, and that is just not going to happen if we keep this up. I need to start my career, and stop working at my job. I want to help my husband pay the bills. How freaking rad would it be to make more money than him!! I don't know that I have ever done that.

I just feel like I have to hurry up and wait around. Is there always going to be something that stops me from doing what I should be doing? And by that, I mean will I always stop myself?

In the market

If there is anyone out there that knows someone that is getting rid of baby boy clothes, I need to meet them. I did not save an ounce of clothing from Spencer, and now I am in NEED of some. Jackson is going to be born in the hottest part of the year, so summer newborn clothes, and 0-3 and 3-6 month fall-winter clothes are best for us. We don't really need anything else, just clothes. I have a ton of chairs, beds and things to put him in, we just need clothes (and diapers too!!!).

Up date on stupid rashes

So I am feeling much better. I still have the rash, but the pain is much more manageable. I don't need the hardcore drugs, I can just take over the counter stuff. My tummy has been a bit off the entire time too, and it is just not getting any better. I think it has to do with what I am eating, drinking and the lack of taking my vitamins. My bad. I am going to start those again tomorrow, just not up to any more drugs right now.

TONIGHT IS THE SEASON PREMIER OF GHOST HUNTERS!!! SCIFI AT 9PM!!! SUPER EXCITED!! I WILL HAVE TO WAIT AND WATCH IT AGAIN AT 11, BECAUSE I WORK TONIGHT, BUT I AM STILL STOKED!!!

We know, we know, we know!!!

Well, the little thing was not working with us. The ultrasound tech was 80% sure it was a girl, but its hand was between its legs. She told me to get up and go to the bathroom so that it would move around and we could get a better look. It is a good thing we did because... ITS A BOY!!! Can you believe he was playing with his wiener so we could not see it!!! Just like a man. I am super duper excited. I wanted it to be a boy.

What is it?!?!?!?!

Only 17 hours until I get to see the new baby!!! Very very excited, yet scared.

20 weeks

I am 20 weeks pregnant today. Half way there!!!

Oh, poor Cori.

So I have a gross issue. I woke up with a random and very very painful rash a few days ago. As time progress, so did the rash. Stupid me checked the internet, and found it could be shingles. Well, I ended up going to my family doctor today, and sure as poop, I freaking have shingles. Can you believe it!! I have never felt so dirty. He says there was nothing I could do to avoid it, you either have it sleeping inside of you and it never comes out, or it comes out. I guess it is sort of like chicken pox. He said it was pregnancy related most likely. He gave me some meds to take care of it, but I have to take 5 pills a day for the next 7 days!! He also gave me something for the pain, so I am pretty drugged up right now. It still hurts though, and that sucks. I have to work all weekend, and will have to do it on my drugs. It is going to be hard. I just wish I had enough sick time to take the weekend off and just stay on the couch.

So excited!!

I can not wait for Monday. I only hope that Twinkle is going to show us what it is. I am a little worried that I am not feeling it move as much as my other two pregnancies at this point. I worry about tempting the fates, you know, with having 2 already healthy, beautiful children. I just hope that Twinkle is healthy. I am so worried.

Pregnancy

I love being pregnant. This pregnancy has definitely been the hardest one yet though. The heartburn has kicked in rather quick this time. Thank God for Zantac!!! I have been uncomfortable already, and that worries me. By the end of the night, my back is really sore. I am just glad that I had lost some weight before getting pregnant, it will help with my back as I get more pregnant. I just have to get my arms and legs back in shape for the birth. My doctor believes in doing it yourself. I was so sore after giving birth to Bella, in my arms from holding my own legs and pulling them back. I think my arms were the most sore out of anything that could be sore after squeezing a human out of a little hole!!! I can't wait for the weather to get better so we can go for walks as a family. It never fails that it is raining, or about to rain when we are all home together and want to go for a walk.

I am just hoping that I can make it until the end of my pregnancy, healthy and working everyday still. I need that last minute money before going on leave. I get 12 weeks off, and that is a long time without money. I have short term disability, so that will pay me for my time off. I have no idea what I will be getting, I know what a co-worker got when she took her 12 weeks off, but she was working more hours than me and I don't know if that has anything to do with it. I wish I could get some answers, but all I ever here is, you just have to wait and call right before you go on your leave. I hope it goes off your pay, and not hours. I know I make a lot more now then she made then, and she got a $700.00 check for her time. That would be so helpful to get a big check like that. I know it is just a few weeks pay, but any money will help.

You know how in the old days, when some one had a baby, or a death in the family, everyone would make you meals to freeze? Well, that is exactly what I need. I would love to get like 5-6 meals to stick in my freezer for when the baby comes home, and that way I can just stick them in the oven and have a good meal for the family. Gosh, how freaking helpful would that be?!?!

I have decided that I will not let anyone throw me a baby shower this time. I feel like because this is my third baby, I don't deserve one. Instead, I am going to have a painting party. I think that would be fun, and way more helpful than anything any one could do for me. I think I am going to send invites out with a list of things that are going to be needed to paint the room. For instance, tape, brushes, rollers ect... . They would have to RSVP so I knew we had enough items to paint, and I would of course provide the paint. We could have food and music and I think it would be fun. The room is big enough that we could have 5 or 6 people in there painting and there would still be enough room to move around (as long as there is nothing in there!). I should probably get on that, so I can give people time to think of what item they want to bring. Please don't take offence to what I am about to say, I DO NOT mean it in a rude or mean way. I will probable not be inviting any family from up North, only because again, been there done that, third baby. I would hate them to drive hours to just paint my house!!! I would never turn down a gift!!!, but I would not expect anyone to drive here for me. That being said, I hope to get an invite to a certain someones baby shower if she so choose to have one!!! I think you know who you are, Randi!!

Baby stuff

So we are going to find out what this new little Tenney is next Monday. I could not be more excited. I only hope that it is healthy and everything is on track. That being said, here are the official names we have picked out. We have had some trouble coming up with a girls name, and I will explain that in a minute. Here they are...

Boy name: Jackson Louis Tenney

Girl name: Emma Ann (or Anne not sure yet) Tenney

We have had the boys name picked out for a few months now, but had not really found a better name than Emma for a girl. I did not want to choose that name because I know that Erin and Eric have a Emma and Ella, and if this is a girl we will have a Emma and Bella. Close huh?? Well, the fact of the matter is, my mom's mom's name was Emma. I wanted to give this girl a name that reflected our moms. John's mom and step mom both have the middle name Ann (or Anne, not sure yet), so it just fit to go with Emma Ann. If it is a boy, we picked Jackson, because John was named after his uncle Jack, and Louis is his grandpas name. We would call him Jack, and how freaking cute is that name!!! All of our children have names that have a very special meaning to us, and we did not want to just pick a name for this one. I am happy with our choices. Now we just have to wait 1 week to find out if Twinkle is Emma or Jackson!!! I can not wait!!!!

Cub Scouts

So last night was Spencer's big Cub Scout Birthday thing. We had to make a cake to auction off. When you get to the bottom, the pizza cake is the one that we made (well, I made it). The other cakes were really nice too, but I love mine!!! My cake ended up bringing in $81.00!! The second highest grossing cake in the room!! Oh yeah baby. Spencer was given his Bobcat badge, so the face painting is that ceremony. It was really cute. They also showed off their pine wood derby cars, his is #126.

Best cake ever!!!