That is that

I was in a better place today, until I turned on the news. Dude. Welcome to the 1920 again. I hope you know how to make your own cloths, because we are headed into another depression. If it is not mother nature turning on us, it is our own country. We are all in trouble and eventually it will effect you in one way or another!!!

Have I found our solution??

After nights of not sleeping, I think I have found an answer. I just hope it is the right solution. I hope by fixing one problem, I am not creating another. How do you know that you are doing the right thing? Really, how do you know. What if this sounds good now, but it leaves us high and dry in 3 months. Again, I freaking hate money.

Dear family

I just wanted to let each and every family member know how much I love and miss you. I feel horrible for not being a good niece and going to visit my sick uncles. I do not do well with sick family. I wish I could be strong, but just looking at Aunt Mary's pictures today made me cry. I can not do it. If I was a stronger person, I would be able to say this to you in person. That being said, please don't think less of me, because my thoughts truly are with you and I do love you. I am here for you if you need me, please do not hesitate to call, text or email me. I would drop everything for you. Love Cori.

What have I done

Wish I could lift this fog. Step out from behind this mood I have entered. Turn on the lights, I am having a hard time seeing what I have come here for. There is just nothing I can do, but to keep going and try to find the way out. It has to be here somewhere, right?

IDK

I'm walking on a long path to nowhere



How do I keep carrying on when I always getting let down? How do I run on empty and still move around?



Here I am again, repeating these same two words to you....IM SORRY!



I can lie about how I feel,But eventually it's going to get to hard to hide the feelings.

101 ways to cope with stress... yeah right.

101 WAYS TO COPE WITH STRESS
Courtesy of the Tripler Army Medical Center, Honolulu, Hawaii
Get up 15 minutes earlier
Prepare for the morning the night before
Avoid tight fitting clothes
Avoid relying on chemical aids
Set appointments ahead
Don't rely on your memory ... write it down
Practice preventive maintenance
Make duplicate keys
Say "no" more often
Set priorities in your life
Avoid negative people
Use time wisely
Simplify meal times
Always make copies of important papers
Anticipate your needs
Repair anything that doesn't work properly
Ask for help with the jobs you dislike
Break large tasks into bite size portions
Look at problems as challenges
Look at challenges differently
Unclutter your life
Smile
Be prepared for rain
Tickle a baby
Pet a friendly dog/cat
Don't know all the answers
Look for a silver lining
Say something nice to someone
Teach a kid to fly a kite
Walk in the rain
Schedule play time into every day
Take a bubble bath
Be aware of the decisions you make
Believe in yourself
Stop saying negative things to yourself
Visualize yourself winning
Develop your sense of humor
Stop thinking tomorrow will be a better today
Have goals for yourself
Dance a jig
Say "hello" to a stranger
Ask a friend for a hug
Look up at the stars
Practice breathing slowly
Learn to whistle a tune
Read a poem
Listen to a symphony
Watch a ballet
Read a story curled up in bed
Do a brand new thing
Stop a bad habit
Buy yourself a flower
Take time to small the flowers
Find support from others
Ask someone to be your "vent-partner"
Do it today
Work at being cheerful and optimistic
Put safety first
Do everything in moderation
Pay attention to your appearance
Strive for Excellence NOT perfection
Stretch your limits a little each day
Look at a work of art
Hum a jingle
Maintain your weight
Plant a tree
Feed the birds
Practice grace under pressure
Stand up and stretch
Always have a plan "B"
Learn a new doodle
Memorize a joke
Be responsible for your feelings
Learn to meet your own needs
Become a better listener
Know your limitations and let others know them, too
Tell someone to have a good day in pig Latin
Throw a paper airplane
Exercise every day
Learn the words to a new song
Get to work early
Clean out one closet
Play patty cake with a toddler
Go on a picnic
Take a different route to work
Leave work early (with permission)
Put air freshener in your car
Watch a movie and eat popcorn
Write a note to a far away friend
Go to a ball game and scream
Cook a meal and eat it by candlelight
Recognize the importance of unconditional love
Remember that stress is an attitude
Keep a journal
Practice a monster smile
Remember you always have options
Have a support network of people, places and things
Quit trying to fix other people
Get enough sleep
Talk less and listen more
Freely praise other people
BONUS: Relax, take each day at a time...you have the rest of your life to live!



What a joke.

Cori's bad bad mood

I have not enjoyed work the last week. I can not put my finger on exactly why. I think it is a lot of different things that add up to unhappiness. I have been a head cashier for 1 year now. I loved my job until the last week. I think other peoples negative attitudes are rubbing off on to me, and that makes me very mad.

There is a part time position open that I wanted, it is a sign making job. It is what it sounds like. It is a 20 hour a week job making and hanging signs. That would be my only responsibility while making signs. I would still be a head cashier, but I would make signs also. I could not do both jobs at the same time, so I would have to dedicate certain days for each job. Not a big deal, but I could make it work. I just need a break. I want to love my job again. I wish I could work 40 hours a week, and split it between the sign making job and being a head cashier. I just can not come up with that much time, and still be a productive member of society. I need sleep too. If I did not have to get up at 8am to get the boy ready for school, I could stay later at the Poe, but the truth is, 12am is the latest I can physically put in at work and still be ok. Again, I wish I could find the time to do everything I wanted to do at work. Damn time and its restrictions.

I am super excited about next weekend. I took Friday-Tuesday off for the Columbus weekend before it was canceled. I could have canceled my vacation, but that would be crazy. John decided to take a 3 day weekend so we could spend some quality time as a family. I can not wait. We have to finish our bedroom. I know what your thinking, what could she possible add... it is beautiful as is. Our closet is a mess. I would love to be able to actually put my clothes away and not just leave them on the kitchen table or the dryer. Sounds like a plan doesn't it!!! The closet is not that big, bit I think once I go through all the cloths that are in there, and get rid of all the old stuff, I will have plenty of room. We also have a dresser that we have not used for over a year and a half. The dresser is big, but the drawers are not that useful, so I can not put lots of things in there. I plan on putting shelves in the middle of the closet, to divide it in half. That way John will have his side and I will have mine. The shelves will be for tee shirts and shorts. I figure I will put strange things that never fold well in the dresser... socks and underwear, swimsuits, unmentionables ect... . I want to say it will not be that much work, but usually when I say that, it turns into a 4 week project. Wish me luck!!! Don't worry, I will post before and after pictures!!